19 feels the same

I've just realised that someone has been reading my blog.. and that someone didn't even tell me.. until she blurted out "hey, let's put this in your blog"...someone who lives so close to me that hiding this sort of information could result in treachery!! yes, may chiew... if you're reading this, i'm so thankful, THANK GOD PRAISE THE LORD that i never bitched about anything in it...

hahahahaha...

i'm so lazy..the novelty of blogging is beginning to fade... and some horrible bug just jumped on to my laptop.. disgusting little vermin.. it's squashed now.

so anyways.. where was i? ah yes... i'm beginning to find blogging tiresome, annoying and ... i'm at a lost for words.

okies... some updates!

i can't remember if i've already put it on.. but anyways, my 19th birthday was definitely a one-of-a-kind experience. rushed home after uni...that was at 4. then rushed out cos tammy chiew gave me 15 minutes prior notice. had spanish.. which was.. ok... something new.. ate a 14 dollar plate of prawns.. there was only 4. AND THEN, went clubbing.. and that was when the fun started.

it took me a LONG time to enter.. i won't say how long.. but it was.. LONG.

but what the heck la.. it was worth it.. even the 20 bucks that i paid was worth it.. the music was great awesome.. way better than bloody techno Rush. no techno shit here.. it was just rnb and dance... awesome!

then went home at 5. got caught in the morning cos uncle choy didn't know that i was staying over at tammy's place. hahahaha.. what an ending.

hmmm...noice noice... as Queenie would put it.

no more celebrating in malaysia for at least 3 more years...for the first time i received a birthday card from my parents...

noice noice.

Why my iPod is better than Yihaur.

Today I bring you reasons why my iPod is better than Yihaur:

01. My iPod doesn't make lame jokes.

02. My iPod has a classier and more stylish image.

03. My iPod always does what I tell it to.

04. My iPod listens to what I want to listen to.

05. My iPod is highly popular and sought-after.

06. My iPod does not MAKE people go to SeaView.

07. My iPod is always there for me.

08. When I'm sad, my iPod always has a song to cheer me up.

09. My iPod will NEVER get drunk.

10. My iPod doesn't have an opinion on anything I think or do.

11. My iPod has a reboot system when or if it crashes.

12. My iPod can reproduce Tchaikovsky's Swan Lake in the exact pitch i.e. My iPod can sing.

13. My iPod is not homophobic.

14. My iPod can be upgraded.

15. I have a more challenging game of chess with my iPod.

16. My iPod can go for eight hours at a time.

15 was 4 years ago

i can't remember what i wanted to write... that's the problem with me nowadays... i think about all these stuff in uni... and then when i come home, i sit in front of my notebook and go blank...

i'm too young to have short-term-memory-loss!!

ooh ooh... okies, it's coming back to me now.. slowly but surely..

yes.. i was gonna say that i was feeling a little nostalgic yesterday when i was looking back at the pictures taken when i was still studying in Taylor's SAM. it was just so FUN! i can't believe how much retardism went on in C25...it's just hilarious... when i was looking through it last night.. i was just thinking to myself... "Gawd... did we DO THIS??"




key idea: use your imagination

*sigh*

and don't think i forgot about the times i had in school... it's too good.. i can't even begin describing the times i had, except that it involved heaps of prank calls to senior guys, getting mud on white skirts (NOT ME!), chor tai tee every day, and just plain old dissing and crapping around...



*sigh*

i wish i was 15 again.. and then fast forward to 18... actually, i don't think i can even remember how 15 was like anymore.. it seemed so long ago...i remember at 15, i felt so mature...we were all finally in the morning session...THE MORNING SESSION!! and it was PMR! big step..

now, i just feel like a kid... that shouldn't be the case, right?

if i could just revisit one day in my life again... it'd be ... ... ... hmm.. that requires more thought..

*sigh*

wouldn't it be lovely?

but since i'm on that context.. wouldn't it be horrible to grow up? i wish i could stay 19 forever.. i don't even want to be 21.. i just want to be like what i am now... forever.. the thought of growing up, getting old, just scares the crap out of me... what will i be in 10 years, 20 years...? i don't want to think about it... and the responsibilities that come with it... i don't think i can handle it... i've been brought up by a sense that fun and play is good... and even right now, i'm struggling, cos uni just sucks up all the fun... it's NOT fun doing assignments and reports... not fun at all...
i don't want to grow up.. please?

Just whinging.

Today has not been one of my better days...

This week has not been one of my better weeks...

*Spoiler*: This is gonna be another whinging session... if you're of the low-in-patience-and-tolerance type, we recommend that you do not read this, or else, have an adult accompany you.

ANYWAY

today was supposed to be a good day, a fun day... i was supposed to have loadsa fun at my geology field trip... but the whole trip turned out to be one wind-battered 'adventure'...frankly, it wasn't as fun as i thought it would be... bummer.

for a start, the wind just wouldn't let up... it just blowed and blowed and blowed and geez-freakin-hell BLOWED! and not mild soothing winds like the ones you get back home, the wind that was blowing at Long Reef and Turrametta Head was all out to get you! and they were out to get you b-a-d. and not only did the wind decided to pick an issue with us, the tide decided to rise from it's original intended time....so much of the rock formations out near the cliffs were inaccessible..ones which were the most interesting... with fossils in them! damn it! FOSSILS!!

so yea, after having fine-grained sand particles blown into your eyes for 6 hours.. we decided that we'd have a much better chance for survival if we all gave up and headed back to our nice warm bus. and so we did.

the only highlight of the trip was the amazing views that i got from on top of the cliffs at Long Reef... i was... amazed... just thousands and thousands of clean blue clear ocean with white raging waves in the middle... beautiful, astounding, just made me realize why i'm doing marine science again...


simply beautiful...


another amazing shot...

ah yes.. so then, the day wasn't over yet for me. caught a train back to Cherrybrook... or at least, TRIED to catch a train back... ran down the wrong platform in Redfern station .. missed the train by 30 seconds.. can you believe that? how ... amazingly stupid and annoying! for the first time .. i cursed. CURSED! myself, the train, everything. i wouldn't have been as mad if i didn't have to wait another 40 minutes for the next one... 30 seconds to 40 minutes... i'm still shaking my head in disbelief.

and still, there was one more surprise waiting for me... tonight was my cousin's uncle's 50th birthday and we were all invited to go. so the plan was for uncle choy to pick me up from the station once i arrived. ah yea, and he was telling me the night before to...

'hurry up and get back cos we have to go early cos the place is really far!'

oh yea, man.. so there i was 5 o'clock waiting at the Penant Hills station for someone to pick me up... and after 50 minutes of being blasted by cold winds (yes, the seemed really active for some reason today) my ride came. how nice... nearly an hour. when i could have gone home and changed from my sand clogged sandals and sea-water sprayed shirt... but no. wait it was and wait i did... for 50 freakin minutes! is that reasonable?? do i have a right to at least feel a little bit pissed, angry, or some negative feeling at least??

ah well... what's done is done.

and just when i thought everything was gonna be alright... they decided to stay till 10.30 and i got home at 11... showered at 11.01... came out shaking as though i was having the fits or epilepsy at 11.15...

ARGH!!!

that's the best word to sum it all...

now, i'll just give you a little snippet of my week...

ahem.

for this whole dumb week i have been waking up at 5.30.. no joke... every morning without fail...even on saturday cos of the field trip... slept every night at 12 because i've been trying to rush my assignments and written reports... wonderful.

so.. what to say?

not one of my better days.

not one of my better weeks.

i think i've still got sand in my eyes.

Good ol' Narcissistic Me

ah... i have to give credit to the aussie sun... life-giver, object of warmth... my source of comfort during these cold cold autumn mornings... ah, if only it'd rise earlier... or if only I'd rise later...


The first break of day.. i reckon my room has the best view...

my skin is shriveled. ok, haha, i was exaggerating... it's not shriveled.. it's just extremely dry... huh. gotta put more cream on it.

today was a relatively ok day. statistics went pretty well.. mind you that the lecture started at 8.. so to be able to stay awake then is already, what i consider to be, an achievement by itself. then, calculus tutes. good old 'extreme-comb-over' man.. really lovely, makes it a point to ask everyone in the class how their day has been.. nice nice. then geology... hahaha... fun. later, hopped in for a quick Genome: The Wonders lecture.. i have to say, my current lecturer is really in-your-face-sarcastic. gotta give him credit too... AFTER IT ALL... 2 hours straight of Physics.. hoo boy! now THAT was punishing. tutes followed by lectures... i hate Mondays. ok, i don't... hang on, maybe i do... i can't make up my mind cos my brain is already beginning to self-reboot... the 1-hour bus-trip home really knocked it in...

so... what did you think was the perfect way to unwind after such a routine?

photography session baby!

ah... haha... i never knew narcissism felt so good... no wonder everyone's taking poser-pictures these days...a camera, a mirror.. that's all you need...


Warming-up shot...


Finally.. getting the hang of it...


This is getting to be quite fun! =]


what can i say? tres naturale!


and yet again...

hahahaha.. something tells me that some of you guys are getting mad cos it's taking helluva-forever just to load these pics.. and it's all just about me! *sniggers* oh well... the girl just wanna have fun...

i promise and i solemnly swear that this will be the last time... i bet you 100% tomorrow morning when i wake up, i'll be burning with embarassment wondering what the hell did i just do.

and no... i'm not drunk.

my saving grace

oh joy JOY! i've finally gotten my own internet...! Alleluia! Praise be to the Lord!

hahahahaha.. no longer will i be an internet-sucking individual, entirely dependant upon the charity of my cousins who fortunately had the goodwill to let me tap into their access for the past 3 months... THANK YOU!

NO! from today onwards i'm going to walk with my head up high and know that i will not be the pathetic-internet-starved person that i was 3 months ago.. no more!

yes yes.. suddenly everything seems so much better... even the biting cold isn't as bad as it was during the days before... even the overwhelming mounds of assignments doesn't emanate the same maliciousness it did 3 days ago... even the food in the uni canteen suddenly seems much nicer.... (and for that to happen... you really have to count upon a miracle)

*bliss* sheer bliss...