Dear...

you are so stupid.
i don't understand you sometimes.
these days i don't even recognise the person you've become.
why do you put on this false exterior and plastic smile?
who are you trying to fool?
what are you trying to prove?
why don't you ever learn from your mistakes?
i've seen you and your habit of riding that carousel...
around you go, in a cycle of delusion and wrong choices and bad decisions.
and you come back to square one; broken, emotionally exhausted and none-the-wiser.
then the self-loathing begins.
why don't you EVER learn from your mistakes?
why do you even bother?
DON'T BOTHER.
just leave it.
don't touch it.
don't pick at the scab.
don't stir the pot.
has not pain taught you ANYTHING?
why are you being so stubborn?
just acknowledge the fact that nothing good can come of it.
and let yourself heal.
can't you even do something as simple as that for your own good?
you are so stupid.
you know you're fucked up, but you refuse to believe it.
you think you lead a life of normality.
but you don't.
it's just a facade you've got going on.
and one day, they will see through you.
by that time, you'll have nowhere to hide,
because you've exhausted all your possible choices.
why don't you EVER learn from your mistakes?
why don't you EVER learn?
why?

*shakes head*

you are so stupid.