Do you hear it whizzing by?

i must've said this a million times, yet i'm gonna say it again.

'It's freaky how fast time flies!'

I'm well into week8 of uni now. that means half the semester's gone. which means that the finals are ever that much closer. which means that i only have OMG 5 MORE FREAKING WEEKS TO COMPLETE ALL MY ASSIGNMENTS!!! which points to the fact that i've still got 4 more major reports to write up and two more field excursions yet to be attended. to which i'm currently asking myself..'IS THERE ENOUGH TIME??'..

i don't want to be the white rabbit again..

but really..my life here revolves around the likes of this:

1. YES it's the WEEKEND!
2. fuck...where did my Weekend go?
3. YES it's the WEEKEND!
4. Repeat infinity times.

The speed at which time is leaving me behind also reminds me that i'll be turning 20 in a good matter of 4 weeks. 20! in 4 weeks! how did that happen? although i'm jubilant over the fact that i have just one more year to go before hitting the legal age, i'm secretly frightened.

there's a part of me that doesn't want to grow up and wants to remain a kid forever. that part of me feels that i am not ready to shoulder such responsibility like mortgages and bills and the most dreaded of all..Work. that part of me wants to be able to run around barefoot without attracting condescending and disapproving stares from those who have been in the adult community for a longer period than i have. that part of me wants to remain young and carefree, and not have to conform to the expectations that is required of a young-adult. that part of me wants to remain a teenager for life because, let's face it, it is prefectly normal and ok for a teen to sleep late and wake even later because of our hormonal imbalances etc etc but it is absolutely FROWNED UPON when an adult does that. because we should be more responsible. ergh.

[some might say that they're adults and they SLEEP LATE and WAKE UP LATE too...but i bet your mom would've made a helluva noise about it, eh, when she calls you at 12.00noon on a Saturday/Sunday and you don't pick up the phone...*snorts*...adults]

la..bottomline is: i don't want to grow up. i want to find my own Never-never-land.

*shakeshead* scary shit.