...i'm at a lost for words now..

I am very angry tonight...actually..if you can see me now...i'm SEETHING.

having an extremely intimate relationship till the point where you can't live without seeing each other is commendable ... but when it gets to the point where you're ignoring your friends and driving them mad...and worst of all, making them feel like substitutes for all the times when your loved one isn't here...that's bad.

that's worst than bad...

that's LOW.

i'm damn disappointed in you. i thought you were made of tougher mettle. i thought you wouldn't be like those girls who seems to be permanently adhered to their 'other half'... i guess for once i thought wrong. or maybe you changed. i'm not sure. but either way, i don't think i like the You that you are now.

just seeing you STICK to him...it sorta makes me sick. i feel that all the hard-fought years for feminism has come crashing down in your very actions...i know this seems a bit exaggerated, but tonight i'm at the point where i just don't bloody care anymore.

seeing that you can tell me that you'll come and spend time with me only when he's not around..it shows how much I, and everyone else who were your friends long before he came into the picture, am valued by you.

i am disappointed.

damn disappointed.

DAMN IT.

at first, i sympathised with you. i really did. especially when you said that he was leaving for studies outside of Malaysia..i really really did. i was all for you spending time with him. believe me. i was. but when you started ignoring us and breaking appointments and treating him like God...that's when things took a turn for the ugly for me.

bottomline is:

i'm DISAPPOINTED.