Week 24: Still pain.

joints are hurting.
i don't normally self-prescribe but now that i'm actually full-blown sick sick, i've been asking myself WWPD? What Would Pa Do?! cos he's the one who's always forcing pills down my throat back home whenever i was sick. i've been taking panadol like they're sugus and downing cough syrup like there's no tomorrow. i read the bottle, it says 'Adults 10ml - Take dosage at night 1 hour before bed' BUT it doesn't say what the limit is.

e.g. Panadol - not more than 8 tablets a day.

i love cough syrup. it has honey and lemon balm in it...nyamnyam. i've been taking a regular 10ml dose every 3 hours or so. i don't think there's such a thing as cough syrup overdose right?

last night was hell. it was probably one of the worst nights of my life. i couldn't sleep because my brain decided to simulate the birthing process, the birth canal being my right eye socket. pounding pain. POUNDING PAIN. and each time i closed my eyes, i had the same recurring dream - something made up of geometric arrow-shapes pounding and smashing into each other, chaotic killing, i would say. and mind you, i woke up like 8 times throughout the night and had the same dream over and over. in the end i couldn't take the bullshit any longer...downed 2 panadol tablets and it was sweet sweet dreamless sleep for me.

now, i'm kinda a little afraid of falling asleep, because i can feel the slight pain at the base of my neck.

ARGH! i want my ma and pa! i wish someone would cook meatball porridge for me sobsobsob.