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hello once again...

it's the exams and i really SHOULD be reading up for the Geology paper tomorrow...but since it starts at 2 and me being the perfect procrastinator that i am..it can wait.

funny thing, really..ever since blogging about Felicia, i feel reluctant to blog anymore...there's just a part of me that keeps saying, "enough...you've done enough already"... it might sound weird, but that what i feel...and just to say if i made any of you cry, i'm truly sorry, it was never my intention to do something like that...but thanks again...i don't know what for, but it just feels good to say thank you... yes, once in awhile, i TOO would like to play the good kid and not always be stereotyped as a spoilt bratty only-child... hahahaha... THANKS!

today has been good to me though...had to sit for Calculus today, but it was good..i mean, heck, i've done the best that i can..and now, i'm just hoping for the best....hahahaha..i'm not gonna be picky or choosy, all i'm asking for is a high distinction...nothing more.

haha

i'm joking. i need to get the humour back in me...i keep replaying the song 'Hold on' from Jet over and over again.. it lulls me into this semi-stoned-semi-relaxed-semi-peaced-out kinda state...it's nice. i recommend it to everyone...

ok, back to today...i did some really good non-academically-related work. i cooked and i baked. yes, seriously..i did!! for the first time in my life..i made biscuits, all by myself...i never had to luxury to do something like that before because back in good-old malaysia, we didn't own an oven...yea, don't laugh..cornflake cookies, ULTRA sinful...it has 250 grams of pure butter and 300 grams of white sugar in it...absolutely lip-smackingly delicioso..!

mmm... biscuits. i remember the very first time i made cookies/biscuits...it was back when i was in std 4-5..i forget. anyways, it was with this bunch of girls, we formed this thing called the Sapphire's Fund Club...don't ask why it's Sapphire and not Ruby or Emerald or something-or-other...i forget. anyways, our club would meet up every Saturday at one of the girls' house... it think her name was Nadia or Natasha...i think it's Nadia..Nadia Baharin...

anyways, one day, we made cookies and it was really fun! mixing flour, beating up the eggs and sugar and everything else that goes along in biscuit-making..and then, *pop* in it went into the oven...nice. could hardly wait for it to be ready ... *anticipation on the high* ...

and in comes Nadia's older sister..and she asks us what we were doing and we said that we were making biscuits...then she goes, oh..nice! then she walks towards the mess that comes with every baking-adventure and looks at the flour on the floor...then she squints and squats down to examine the flour and stand up laughing...do you know that there's worms in the flour??

it was a shocker! not so much as the possibility of us eating worms cooked at 180 degrees if she hadn't told us, but more of the idea of us having mushed up all those wonderful batter with our fingers! ultimate gross-out. i think that sparked my fascination with worms.

haha

i'm just teasing.

about my fascination with the worms...

anyways, i wonder what happened to Nadia and her family? i remember her quite vividly now... she was the one who introduced me to the Lord of the Rings, the novel...back when Orlando Bloom was still an unknown bloke struggling to get through acting school...and she had horses in Fraser's Hill...and she gave me this book on volcanoes, which was really nice of her...and we'd congregate at her house every saturday and we did this silly recording and taped all oour conversations for the whole day...cos her mom taught at the university and wanted to lecture about the speech habits of kids today...

i wonder...what happened to her? she move away from our neighbourhood and we never kept in touch anymore...maybe i've gotta scout around friendster ... it's worked pretty well so far.

hmm... yes, maybe that's what i'll do now..

peace out..!